Thursday

Slept. Awoke abruptly at some very early hour. Wide awake. Brain racing. Then back to sleep.

Up and shower. Today is interview day for potential new members of team so mentally consider wardrobe to look suitably managerial whilst rinsing conditioner and facial mask. Breakfast. Still oats and 1 Weetabix.

Decide on slate grey skirt suit - not one purchase yesterday. Stomach to distended for that pencil shape.

Tube 7.40. Wrestle with VW once more. Listen to Seal on MP3. Bank. 8.10am. Cheapside. Starbucks, GSWL.

Desk.

10am data standards panel meeting.

11.55 pop to Pret for chicken & mushroom soup and an egg & cress salad sandwich.

Eat food at desk. 12.30 cross to other building to wait for 4 candidates. 2 do not turn up. 1 is 10 minutes late. The other nearly 45 minutes late. Proceed with job interview. 12 questions. No right or wrong answers. Give examples. Tests competency to do job.

First interview. Monosyllabic.

Second interview. Same answers to all questions.

Return to desk frustrated at wasted time.

Start once more with EA finance process headlining.

Talk to planetface.

5pm go to other building to see planetface who has belated birthday present for me. A divine blank empty journal. For feelings. Thoughts. Here is where I recount the what I did.

End up staying and trying to articulate current state of mind.

Fail.

Return to office at 6pm.

Girls night out. 3 of us head to Jamie's.

Detox lasts until free sample of Pinot Noir offered. 2 others arrive. Another glass of wine.

Walk to Wagamama's @ Moorgate. Have special kedgeree. Fish is a theme this week.

Eat with wine.

Share stories. Recall past. 9 years ago. Realisation now 37 not 28.

Tube.

Tesco. Detox further ruined by purchase of 10 Marlboro lights.

Home.

Text all 4 girls to make sure they got home ok.

Late night and some alcohol.

Sleep.