so..

time zone sorted , i wonder if everyone has the amazing urge to write everything that is on their mind once they have finally taken the plunge and started.. ?

if i were too, i really do not know where i would begin. suffice to say i drank too much on Friday and have scant memories but the ones i have do not maketh me overly proud. losing a day of my life - what a waste. all the words i said or didn't say...

i have forgotten all the rules of being single.. sort of seeing someone and sort of not.. when to phone and when not. when to be open and when to keep ones counsel. when to be totally honest - stop beating round the bush and be completely open. when to keep a secret and when to sing it all from the roof tops. so why does what i do affect anyone else? i guess because that's the nature of day to day life. in all honesty i could just say and do what i want - but then there are always consequences. i am fed up with having to have a strategy and playing by rules. i played by rules for four years.. loyal, faithful, honest and true. walked all over. so now i want to be a bit freer - find a new level to operate on.

i have met some wonderful people in the last 7 months, amongst whom was myself - discovered the parts of life which make me feel content and those that need to be expanded. stretched... ambition over duty. the only duty i have now is too myself... i think...

i do so feel better for my nightly stomp home.. the head whirrs - and here is where i shall share - well the parts which i don't mind anyone seeing/reading!!

until tomorrow assume nothing....