Euro 2008

starts on June 7th... now I had to look that up because of course England failed miserably in qualification and are not there (thank heavens - no hype & nonsense this summer - could we ever top Euro 96?).

So the questions are, will you watch and who will you support??

I am controversially going to cheer on Germany...!!

Et tu?

Meanwhile FIFA want to block the number of foreigners playing at club level.. sadly the EU laws may have something to say about that... pity. But worth a fight I feel.

...

arse.
no particular reason.
just how i feel.

Footie Madness

My footie blog ramblings have caused some interest from other fans... I am going to be sourcing some of my snaps for an Oldham fan... you see it really is about communties! NOT money and fewer England players.... We should be able to beat the USA though - surely!!

To avoid

the crippling depression I fell into around this time last year I am NOT going to attend the new partners drinks this evening, even though they are earlier this yea, free and despite the fact last time the wine was very tasty.. fingers crossed. Instead I am going home to watch the England friendly... so that will help no end!

Persistence

You feel invincible, KAREN, and have an inbuilt confidence that is able to overcome almost any obstacle. But you still need to take care while Mercury is retrograde. It turns retrograde on Monday in Gemini and in your work zone. So despite your determination to get ahead, you will need to exercise caution. This is a good time to check that your antivirus software is up-to-date and that you have backed up important data. Keep documents in a safe place so that you know where they are and can reach them easily if necessary. This isn't the best time to buy a new car or computer, either, as you may not get the deal you are hoping. If you have health issues, there may be delays in getting the right treatment, but don't worry as delays can sometimes work in your favor - they are not always a negative. With a focus on your health as well as your job, this is a good time to review your goals and determine whether you are meeting your targets or not. Your joint financial zone is currently an area of great activity, so it's time to get those debts paid off.

Walkabout...

Ray Mears - genius! Kangaroo poo makes fire... tops Sunday TV. Thank you Mr BBC.

'Desert'

Ray Mears is in desert survival mode as he follows in the footsteps of an unsung hero of Australian exploration to find out how John McDouall Stuart became the first European to succeed in crossing this continent from South to North and back again. Ray shows how to wring water from these barren lands and how travelling light is the key to success on such an epic journey. cf Beeb website.

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While I am here I must apologise to Monty Don - I had a been a little disrespectful during the week following news he had stepped down from Gardners World. I had not at the time realised he had suffered a stroke. Hopefully he gets better soon - because although I pull my Dad's leg about him it's because I quite like his soft unassuming passion for plants. Get well soon Monty.

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Bank Holiday Sunday

Today. Well better than yesterday - after the Archers, went for a walk, cooked proper food for dinner and have managed to only watch TV for the Monaco Grand Prix - well done Lewis and the Sky Sports News for pictures of the Doncaster Rovers win. Well done Donny - there is a footballing God!! Sure Mikey Gee will be glad he made the effort to go to at least one game this season, travelling the short distance down the tube line!!

Oh dear there is a singing worm on TV - advert for West + compost... talking of which my compost bin does appear to creating its own heat too!! Nice.

Well done Donny!

next season Leeds..?

Bank Holiday Saturday

Oh dear. I appear to have spent the day dozing on the sofa feeling sorry for myself or playing a cameo part in multiple 'Midsomer Murders'.

I did get up intending to make the most of the weather - I did get all washing dried and nicely aired. I just didn't manage to leave the flat. I had a wash. Had scrambled egg on toast. Listened to a very amusing 'Fighting Talk'. There my day became a blur. A very delayed hangover maybe or just generally feeling run down. References to my shrinking desire have been countered with the suggestion I am depressed. I'll resist that for now. Preferring sleep. ITV3 and DCI Barnaby. Sleep. My ITV3 horoscopes said it would be a lazy day at which I felt immediately better about my lack of activity. Sleep.

To make matters worse all the usual good Sat pm TV was replaced by the Eurovision Song Contest. WHY?!?!?

So no 'Dr Who'. Boo. Or Doctors of Holby. Tea was pasta and sauce.

I gave up on Midsomer when the episodes where ones I had already seen.. and I diverted to Internet to watch 'Waking the Dead' having missed the Tuesday episode. Intent on going to bed at a reasonable hour I found that Friends Reunited is now free to mail friends on and as time ticked by it was clear I was going to fail in quest for reasonable bedtime. I started doing some research for my Mum about her Dad. The Internet is supposed to make that stuff easier. To a point it does but there are lots of sites now trying to cash in on family tree stuff... and so I got lost in my parents parents past... and before I knew it had gone midnight and I was cold.... that said evenings like this are quite good... time seems to stop and only when you look up do you realise the mind and brain and have been on journeys no TV prog could ever capture.

Bed, get warm and Radio BBC 7 - play about Billy Fury.

Telekon DVD

Ah yes - meant to post this earlier!! Thank you Mr Zig for alerting me to the fact that on the Gary Numan DVD, taken at the Telekon show we attended at the Forum, we can be clearly seen - 'our little heads a couple of times, caught in rapture (or something)'. I shall make sure to purchase and share in the joy of seeing us... it was a rather good gig!! :-)

NooooooooooooMan!!!

Heavy Heart

is one thing - BUT I am firing on all cylinders at work once more. Which is good. For I was considering a major life shake up. A shift in focus and new horizons to conquer. Change is good and its the one thing I dread more than anything. SO I never run away - that's way too scary. I leave because it feels right for me.

Have I mentioned my surfeit of spots yet this week?? You could spend hours trying to join them... clumps of 3 on both sides and on the forehead and chin. Spotty and not distinctly teenage. I'm rambling...

Thanks siserval for dropping by - glad to hear from you and know you are OK... (that's 2 Man U fans who visited my site!!! Brave!)

It is with regret...

that I have to confess I have lost the knack to 'want' somebody. In my twenties it all seemed so simple. To lust and dream of blokes. To imagine ways of seducing them. To sleep with them in your head - first thought in morning, last thought at night. To go out with them and go with the flow.

I fear that thing called 'desire' has all but been kicked out of me. Sure I dream of passionate moments and steamy encounters. But actually doing anything about it... I can't. I freeze. I run through all the consequences and retreat. The spark extinguished. Even just touching someone on the arm or knee. I just don't. There were two occasions today, both of which I ran through in my head. But neither of which I even came close to acting on. Or believed worthwhile of trying.

I wonder if I have any urges left. Has the road become so single laned that I can't face a dual carriageway? Has my need for other things like trust and mutual respect become more important? Maybe I am too self sufficient and 'scary'. Maybe I know my own mind too well.

Yet, I know I have so much to give. Already give.

Not sure where this came from. Well I do know. Past and present all in one day. Never go back maybe? I have vivid recollections - wish I had been less sensible back then. Made a few more mistakes. To fail in somethings is at least a way of knowing you tried. To keep feelings inside for fear of unleashing more anguish. Is that really so sensible?

It is with a heavy heart I approach the weekend...

Dilemma

Do I go to the Summer Party on 6th June... or cut my losses and head to Biggin Hill with my Pater to potentially get sight of the Vulcan - which means going home on the 6th so we can be up and out early on the 7th June???

Nice dress/free drink/adequate company vs tops aeroplane/donuts 'n' coffee/ace company....

Mmm....what would you do?

Man U v Chelsea...

Surely there are other things to talk about?!?!

Friendlies...

as if there is such a thing........

Tuesday 15th July FULHAM (Home) 7.45pm
Thursday 17th July FAVERSHAM (Away) 7.30pm
Saturday 19th July GRAYS (Away) 3pm
Wednesday 23rd July IPSWICH TOWN XI (Home) 7.45pm
Saturday 26th July FOLKESTONE (Away) 3pm
Tuesday 29th July DOVER (Away) 7.45pm
Saturday 2nd Aug THURROCK (Away) 3pm

Important Dates

.. David Bowie ..
-- Pat Rafter --
** Christian Bale **
.. Garry Richards .. LOL

oh no sorry - these sort of dates...
1) Monday 16th June - 10am - FIXTURES RELEASED for DIV TWO!
2) Saturday 9th August - 3pm - SEASON BEGINS!!

It's only been 16 days and as you can see I am suffering. Total loose end. Dangling thread. No wonder I am single - only free for dates between now and August. When most normal people are out doing other things or on holidays..

Capri

I dyed my hair yesterday. No-one commented. So it must look well natural!! Because I'm worth it!! LOL!

Waking the Dead

Tops Tops Tops Drama...

I like it lots! Stimulates the brain cells. Last one tomorrow. Boo.

Incy Wincy Spider

Web. I think mine is detangling of its own accord. I get a strong sense that the threads are separating and falling apart. All the so-called romantic leads are fading. Their realities hitting home for me. How did I get so naive? So rose-tinted? Or have I just got so hungry that all those that strayed onto my web I've decided to devour?

All the internal heartache I have put myself through seems unimportant to anyone but me - the weekend just gone has re-opened my eyes. Reminded me where, with some, I sit on their list. Given a spinning race I'd rather spin my own.

Web. Now I need to spin a different one. Let this be a proper re-thread.

(Can spiders eat slugs?!)

Mileage

Last week I discovered a simple way of extending my me time. I have been taking my walking gear to work and changing into it before leaving the office. As soon as I am out of the doors I cease to be part of it - work/the office. It's been like reclaiming a part of my life that I enjoy - walking. Okay so it's not early in the morning - but with the lighter evenings and a new pair of trainers I have certainly burnt a few miles in the last few days... culminating in walking all the way home on Friday (shame I then found some drinking companions and drank several pints of bitter....) which gave me the greatest buzz (the walk not the beer) - 8 miles in 2 hours dead! Come on! The beer just gave me a dull head the next day. Boo.

Total miles walked (Sun-Sat) - 40.74

Ave per day - 5.82